The past two years I lived in the United States as many of you already know, well for me one of the most important moments there was Thanksgiving in both years.

The event is not as important as what it meant to me, or as what I learn as an outsider, because for the ones that doesn’t know in Mexico we don’t celebrate Thanksgiving.

I learn about family and about how close a culture can be, close in different meanings, the adjective and the verb make a difference here, close as in short distance, as in family and closed as in not open.

Close as in short distance, well, Mexican culture and the American have something in common, we get together in certain dates with the family, the mexican culture tend to be every Sunday or in the most remote case in Christmas, the american culture get together with the whole family on Thanksgiving, the only thing, isn’t Thanksgiving about people moving away, leaving home from their own choosing a life that is different from their parents life, well how do they celebrate it, spending time with their families (close as a verb) ironic.

Well it’s not only about that, for me it became of thanking for what I have, for what I receive, for getting blessings from someone more powerful than me, that let all the causal things to lead my life to a certain point, meting new friends, or finding again old friends, of how family is important, on how loves of the past have done something to make me who I am today, and even more important, how mistakes doesn’t necessary are mistakes in the worst way, but decisions taken by different people, that will take my life, and the one who is related to change in a way, to improve or to find out that those mistakes were wrong decisions that have consequences.

Tonight I wanted to thank that person above me for everything I have, starting, from my own life, from my own experiences that I have lived, from my family that have race me the way I am, for friends that have become family with out sharing the blood, for the people that love me and the ones that have loved me before, for the people that even didn’t like me, because in a way that has made me stronger, or show me my mistakes. I really want to show my appreciation and gratefulness for all of those moments, for showing me how someone can be better because of you.

I had thanksgiving dinner in Mexico, I eat turkey, stuffing, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, cranberry sauce, and more stuff, I miss cornbread, and little things, like the people that open their home and their heart for me on the past 2 years that I live in Warrensburg.

I miss hugging them and saying thank-you and enjoying time with them, mainly thats what I want to do tonight.

Thank each one of you for making my life so special, for helping me be who I am today. This doesn’t mean that only on Thanksgiving you help me, it means that you help me to become who I am, at some special moment in the past years.

With all my heart thank you to each one of you
Even thou many know I am not that religious

G0d Bless you all and your families

-song of the night

Mr. Turkey, Mr. Turkey
Run away, Run away
If you don’t be careful
You will be a mouthful
Thanksgiving Day
Thanksgiving Day

How does the world see you?

No es lo mismo – Alejandro Sanz (its not the same)

Will I have a happy life?
With a little help from my friends – Sergio Mendez (original version the beatles)

What do my friends really think of me?
When you were young – The killers

Do people secretly lust after me?
Mala hierba – Alejandra Guzman (weed)

How can I make myself happy?
Corazon Espinado – Mana (heart with spines)

What should I do with my life?
Los chicos no lloran – Miguel Bose (boys don’t cry)

Will I ever have children?
Pocket Calculator – Kraftwerk

What is some good advice for me?
Vanilla Sky – Paul McCartney

How will I be remembered?
We are the Champions – Queen

What is my signature dancing song?
Does anybody really know what time is it – Chicago

What do I think my current theme song is?
The more you live, the more you love – Flock of Seagulls

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Moonlight Shadow – Mike Oldfield

What song will play at my funeral?
(Cant get no) Satisfaction – Cat Power (original version The Rolling Stones)

What type of men/women do I like?
El Album – Atrciopelados (the photo album)

What is my day (tomorrow) going to be like?
Its five o’clock somewhere – Alan Jackson & Jimmy Buffett

“I think I’ll just call it a day”
Pour me somethin’ tall and strong
Make it a hurricane before I go insane
It’s only half past twelve but I don’t care
It’s 5 O’clock somewhere

Truly those are the 15 songs that came, some say a lot of the feelings this days

Sometimes when you think that things are going to go to hell, people show up, even the least expected, people that you haven’t seen in a couple of years called you, people that once were in love with you try to cheer you up, people you didn’t know that want to talk to you even say smile, and some even tell you that the worst thing that can happen is to die but Im in the reborn moment.

To tell you the truth the expected are the usual friends and your gang. Well this time everyone said a word, many in private, some on public, even mails from China where I though things would not be readable so soon.

The usual gang show up, sometimes a game of scrabble and sometime playing monopoly without asking questions but telling you the good things that your friends and you have done helps to realize how many things are great, and how things will be better.

Listening to my ideas help, talking about the project was great, a couple even want already to invest, some help with ideas, and some with names of people to call, knowing that people trust you and believe in you its amazing, so many things help people cheer up.

Hugs are great, hugs of people that you care are better, the son of my friend hug me and told me that he miss me, that we need to play more, and he said “te quiero” I love you, and it cheer me up so much.

Projects are still working, business plans are being typed, I thank you all, I thank every single moment, my heart is full of friends, my heart is in need of love, but lets solve one thing at a time.

I’m trusting myself, I believe I can do what I dream right now. I will keep you posted.

-song of the weekend
Yo no te voy a detener
ese fue un trato entre los dos
si yo no te hacia feliz, dirias adios

I tend to think that life is easy, and that noting is impossible, actually part of my life has had the motto, impossible is just a word.

Sometimes you realize things with time, not precisely when you thought it was going to be the best timing or even when you wanted/hope to.

One day at a time makes many, but one day to wait turns things upside down.

I don’t regret my life, I regret not saying I love you when i had to do it. Daily is the last day for someone, and the first day for someone else, someone die and someone is born, maybe is time to die and be reborn.

Let me be who I am, let me make thing possible and amazing, let me make magic, let me be the magician I always wanted to be when I was a kid.

I want to let myself be, I want to believe in me, I want to love me again, I want to try harder, I want to make things work, I want all of that and more.

Forgive me for my mistakes, Im trying to forgive myself.

Things are not that bad, just not in the correct order, at least not right now, thing will be better as soon as I can hug myself and hug my life, get hold of what I got and what I lost.

Thanks for all the great moments thanks for all we had, the best is yet to come.

-the song of the night
Flight me to the moon
repeat 3 times
sing by Frank Sinatra
sing by Astrud Gilberto
and with a tear from my eye sung by me